if you get too close I will push you away
and I will say some things I probably shouldn’t say
I am scared to learn, to love, to hate
and I wont leave my life up to fate.
Hear the water drip from the faucet
close the door to the bedroom closet
and count the sheep up on the ceiling
but I will fight that nervous feeling
I wont get butterflies when you are around
and I wont pick you up from the ground
after knocking you completely down
I wont, No I wont let myself drown.
The sheets are clean but I wash them anyway
Think that maybe I’ll put it off for another day
Procrastination seems to be my best weakness
I will wake up another day sleepless.
If I could make any sense of it all right now
I’d say that you’ve taken this from me somehow
My heads not clear, when you arent near
And you’re another dream that my heart may fear.
So please leave me alone today and tomorrow
For these pages cannot handle any more sorrow
Hear me cry, watch me beg, wipe my tears
and forget all we wanted over the last few years.
